So last week, December 20 2011 to be exact, I scheduled my first Zumba class at NampaFitStudio . I scheduled Audrie too so I wasn't alone and feeling awkward. They were having the 12 Days of Christmas and doing 12 free classes. Zumba was free that night and Audrie didnt have to work. We also had an unused free class we had got from an event we went to clear back in Feb 2011. So I scheduled us for Zumba for the next night also.
Im tired of being fat, stared at, being wheezy and the limited selection of clothes available. I am the size of TWO PEOPLE (who still need to go on a diet). So I have a twin I lug around. This twin is a pain in my ass. My evil twin trips me, makes my back hurt and has given me somewhat of a pinched nerve in my right thigh area. I have a fatty liver (which I have to have another ultrasound on tomorrow), SEVERE asthma, gerd, sleep apnea and tip toe around the big D word....Diabetes.
So every day im going to try and update my progress here. I have joined NampaFitStudio and have unlimited credits. Its different from a gym as there are no enrollment fees, long term commitments (the only long term commitment I need to have is with my husband of 21 years) and no hidden fees when you quit going. Not to mention fun classes, great mix of people who are all there for the same reasons, and the best part is the instructors are like having my own personal trainer. Where else am I going to get that. They are all so nice and make you feel so comfortable.
Now for what Im sure you are all waiting for..... MY WEIGHT.. I don't care that you know. Its not like you dont know. Do any of you really think I weigh 130 lbs? Well thats only when Im totally naked IN MY DREAMS..
I WEIGHED 353 this morning. 356 when I started exercising the 20th. I would much rather you KNOW what I weigh vs guessing and making me fatter!
I don't sit and eat all day. I don't eat alot of junk food. I do however play on Facebook way to much everyday and have never exercised besides high school pe. And guess what I FLUNKED that in 8th grade (mostly because the teacher was a bitch and after I told her she was she locked me outside in a blizzard. Not whimpy Nampa, Id blizzards either but Evanston,Wy blizzards) and a few times barely squeaked by with D's in high school. Because guess what SHE TRANSFERED THERE. She was so ignorant. Most of the time she would make us run and whenever she couldnt see me or my friends we walked. So glad to be done with that phase of my life. She was going to kill me. I had asthma then too just not diagnosed by a Dr yet and when she made me run I would get wheezy and of course it was just because I was lazy. So the next time I'm doing cardiokick and need to visualize a face to punch, guess who its going to be? Well her and a few more people I can cycle thru that deserve it.
Lordy Lordy, Zumba was fun and very high energy. I of course slowed down to something I could do and Jennifer the instructor helped me modifying to different moves that suited me better. The first night I was able to do the whole hour long class. 2nd night I was beat by the 3rd song and had to step in place then I just had to sit for a few songs. Then I got right back in after I felt better.
Last night (the 27th) our class we took was flab fighters. I even scheduled the whole month of January taking that class 6 days a week thinking it was going to be easier and slower... HA FLAB CHANCE... It definitely is a challenge but I am not a quitter and I know the more I do the easier it will be for me. I had alot of fun. Sweated so much I had sweat in my eyes. My legs,arms and bat wings felt like rubber they were so so tired. The plus to that is I was working my butt off and Kim was doing her job pushing me to keep going never pushing me beyond what I couldn't do. I'm looking forward to January and her kicking my flab around some more.
Today I got up at 5am so I could go to a cardiokick with upper body tone. It's like kick boxing, cardio and hand weights. Boy howdy my buns will be buns of steel and i will have a six pack in no time if Kim has any say so. I didn't use my inhaler at all. Before all these classes I think to myself "what have you gotten yourself into now" and I am so happy that I am alive and kicking at the end. It makes me proud of myself to make it to the end. What I thought I couldn't accomplish and was so far out of my league was well within my grasp and I COULD DO IT.
I absolutely hate the month of December. So many bad things seem to happen. After Robert's brain injury last year we decided to Skip the month all together and so this is actually September to me. That is what he kept saying it was when they asked him and we have great memories that month (both our birthdays and our anniversary) so we went with that. I've also realized my first class was on the same day he was hurt so bad and given another new lease on life. He also had another new lease on life the year prior with a heart attack on Dec 3rd. Ive also had 2 very close family members die in the month of December. So I feel its time for me to change all this for the better. I don't want to wait until something bad happens to me. Its not a matter of IF it is clearly a matter of WHEN. Im not waiting until the new year to make a pointless resolution that so many people fail to stay committed to. Im doing it now!
I have friends at the studo, access to more personal trainers than i can count on one hand available to me during each class, and of course my very supportive family. Im going to do this. I HAVE to do this. Im not doing it for anyone else but myself. My husband loves me for me. He loved me when I was thin and he loves me when Im thick. And making you all proud of me is just an added bonus.
I want to be able to look back on this and see how far I have come and as a reminder I never want to go back.
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